Stuff I put in my notes app usually :)

Somewhere to put my sad and sappy writing :D

In another universe I don't carry a photo of you around in my wallet. I don't see the need when you're right there with me.

When I left this past Sunday I waited to see if I'd get a hug goodbye. I waited and you didn't see me. I called out and you didn't hear me. I cried and you just kept walking away.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have someone to look up to. Someone who is always there for me, and I can always count on. But instead you left too early, and I learned early on I couldn't count on him. all I can do is hope I'm good enough to be looked up to.

If I could make one wish, that changed something so drastically, it would be for you to still be here, even if it meant my life in return. You always found a way to smile, no matter the cost. But I can't make that wish, and so I can only hope my poor imitation of you is enough.

I've got this white pillow, at least it used to be, before those bright purple stains appeared. I don't regret them though. They remind me of smiling with you, if those careless moments we can have.

I wonder if they think about the music I play too loud, or the smiles I fail to hide and the laughs I tried to smother. I wonder if they look back on them just as fondly as I look back on them. I wonder they think about me the way I think about them.